learning to breathe

douleurr @ 2009-11-09T01:13:00

2009-11-08T17:13:54Z

American Apparel Unisex Acid Wash Jersey Deep V-Neck Short Sleeve Summer T
in BLACK, Size XS (Pending)
Fits UK size 8-12

Brand new, unwashed and unworn
Online retail price US$30
Selling at S$23 mailed!

American Eagle Women Straight Jean
16" across, 38" down
Brand new, unwashed and unworn
Size 6 short

Online retail price US$49.50
Selling for S$30 with meetup!

LoveandBravery Fidelia Sequin blazer (sold!)
Worn once, washed
NO DEFECTS!
Online retail price: $26
Selling at $21 with meetup!

Items are bought online, GUARANTEED AUTHENTICITY
Would only trade blazer/AA top for Jansport/Eastpak plain backpacks!
Prices non-nego!
Meet ups held at my convenience

Email me at paranoiaa@gmail.com or simple comment if you have any questions!
Dead buyers stay away!!!

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shifted ;)

2009-05-06T12:14:32Z

eleventhh.blogspot

This journal will remain as a tribute to the long cherished days..
: )

douleurr @ 2009-04-30T16:51:00

2009-04-30T08:52:15Z

best. twilight. trailer.

love,
non-twilight fan

douleurr @ 2009-04-29T16:01:00

2009-04-29T08:07:26Z

Today:

Some pretty lousy interview,
but I had a really good day...
Changed into a teeshirt dress, proceeded to stuff myself, got a sweating cup of iced tea in hand while I trudged the streets trying to forget about the interview. Tried on a pair of Ray-bans. Too small... gotta get a larger pair. Bought a little birthday present for myself. A really good one...

hide me now, under your wings

2009-04-28T15:00:34Z

I have a weird condition.
I get awfully dizzy after having soft drinks. Hasn't changed since secondary schools years.

So I was feeling pretty down today... grabbed a can of Pepsi and downed all the contents.
The next thing I know, I was seeing stars when I bent over to collate my documents for tomorrow's interview.
Purrrrrrrrfect.
I'm the most pathetic person I know.

On a lighter note,
no school for me tomorrow! : )
Always awesome when there's no work.

&btw this is the 600th post! I should be moving soon..........

douleurr @ 2009-04-28T01:22:00

2009-04-27T17:22:20Z

what is up..?
Here's blogging from the bedroom. with the stench of unwashed laundry hanging in the air, the fan blowing warm, stuffy wind..
Here's thinking, if I had made an effort, things would be/could be infinitely better.. But knowing me, knowing me.. I don't do the whole 'could have been''s. I shouldn't. Too many faults to amend. Too many hearts to make unbroken. Let the sleeping dogs lie... But you should know - you have to know, that if I loved enough to care and cared enough to love, I Do feel sorry for letting you slip away. I really do. Here's the side of the story from the heartbreakers.

And now for the epiphany of the night...
If we have to endure hell to get to heaven, well.. I think it would be well worth the effort.

Counting down the hours..

douleurr @ 2009-04-27T23:07:00

2009-04-27T15:10:51Z

If I could have things my way, you know we would be drinking tea in your room all day... listening to girl in a coma. Eat warm bagels with cream cheese (because I am not So fond of butter..) and watch some indie films and doze off occasionally. You could laugh at my interests and I would joke about your weird habits.

It's all I think about...
You.

douleurr @ 2009-04-26T16:58:00

2009-04-26T08:59:34Z

I let my pain and dependencies run my life...

(and I do like it better this way)

stepping up!

2009-04-21T11:59:36Z

So,

on an idle, sleepy evening, my dear sister had the great idea to go for a jog (not quite an idea for her but a habit)... And i am, frankly, in a rather bad (read: fat) shape, so I decided on stairs training instead.
Being my Sister, she had to ask if my fat butt was the reason for my sudden motivation to exercise... And then taunt me with the fact that I had a rather shapely butt since childhood (read: hence nothing could possibly help).
I lead a depressing life.
Nonetheless, we got out of the house, and fifteen minutes later I was slick with sweat, panting and somewhat dizzy. Neighbours shot me weird looks. And just then, somebody in a white tee and long, dark hair was riding up in the elevator.. with my sweat-blurred vision I could almost swear I saw sadako riding the lift. I think the government ought to pass a law forbidding all long and dark- haired girls from wearing white tees and messaging with their head bent down.. It'd greatly reduce the no. of heart attack incidents, I swear.

I suppose this is the longest post I've written in a while, and here's the catch: I'm typing on a qwerty smartphone (not mine). I could get used to this!

Xoxoxoxo

douleurr @ 2009-04-21T18:04:00

2009-04-21T10:09:55Z

There's just something about me and (financial) saving that doesn't go along...

babe

2009-04-20T15:32:47Z

New babe! : )
Freaking adorable! All I lack is the polka dotty sticker now...

So I didn't attend school today. I swear it's legit... my nose is falling off right this moment in addition to the runs this morning. I hate allergies.

Over and out!

because I don't like doing it on facebook

2009-04-20T05:19:49Z

What is your current obsession?

tea, magazines, jeans, bags, shoes... & all things shiny and fanciful.
What is your weirdest obsession?

uhhhmm, tea?
What are you wearing today?

summer tea from americanapparel, black shorts and my sister's havaianas. and yes, around the house..

Why is today special?

I bought a blackberry, called in sick because I had the runs......

What would you like to learn to do?

speak french.
What’s for dinner today?

mom might be whipping up a storm. i dont know.

What’s the last thing you bought?

blackberry curve and a cover for it.
What are you listening to right now?

the fan spinning...

What is your favourite weather?

cloudy and windy! is that a weather?

What is your most challenging goal right now?

going through with my work and entering the university... haha and stop spending!
What do you think about the person who tagged you?

nobody tagged me : )

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

new york...? williamsburg hahah.

Favorite vacation spot?

aussie was nice... as was phuket, thailand but i think things might be going a little looney there

What are you currently reading?
some trashy novels

What would you like to get rid of?

haha! all the junk in my room.

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

vancouver canada! dont ask.

Which language do you want to learn?

french and swedish
What did you dream of last night?

barely had any sleep last night

Who do you want to meet in person?

too many people.......!

One thing that you would snitch out of someone’s closet, with no regrets?

alexa chung's ........ whatever. haha
What’s your favorite piece of clothing in your closet?

hahaha all my identical sheer white v-necks from all over!

What is your dream job?

to own and manage a cafe/boulangerie
Personal aspirations at the moment?

hmmm too many!
Your style is influenced by?

i have zerooooo style hahaha

douleurr @ 2009-04-18T14:21:00

2009-04-18T06:24:21Z

WHATS UP WITH THE WORLD

gna get out and roam the streets while the sun is still shining

soft addictions

2009-04-16T16:11:48Z

waffles, bubble teas, magazines, bags, flats, white teeshirts, online shopping

multiply that by a hundred...
gonna cut it all out.

nobody nobody but you

2009-04-13T10:38:24Z

I was planning on napping but I had too much orange soda..
so,
some photo updates:

so t'was good friday ♥

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SATURDAY -

soup spoon was good,
but then we later went on to have entirely TOO MUCH prata...
(oh wait, that was just me.)

if my ulcer could retaliate I swear it would have exploded thrice over.

casting off all the "should-have-been"'s for the "would-be"'s

2009-04-13T07:19:59Z

Life is pretty awesome I swear...

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I'm turning NINETEEN.
It feels like I'm turning eighteen all over again. I don't think I can feel any older than that.
(I swear, if not for my hair I'd totally blend into the crowd in the school I'm teaching in.)

REGARDLESS,
from this year onwards I'm gonna start saving.
I might be repeating myself every year but whatever. It's gonna work out this time!!

sudden brunnette

2009-04-10T16:46:06Z

If anything,
I hate mascara.
I hate how it smudges across my eyes when I rub my face. I hate how it hurts when I yawn and my eyes tear.
I hate how, when I try to remove it, the make up oil emulsifies with the tap water and seeps into my eyes along with the mascara residue... and then EVERYTHING. GOES. BLUR.
Suddenly I have the vision of an elderly with cataracts.
I hate eyeliner. I hate how it goes everywhere when I rub my eyes, but refuse to budge for days when I try to clean it off.
(I only like to look like a punk on alternate days.)

Not your usual makeup-obsessed girl.....

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On another note,
I am currently harbouring a huge girl crush on Miss Alexa Chung.

yeah. : )

douleurr @ 2009-04-09T00:19:00

2009-04-08T16:25:14Z

Things are looking up again... got a brand new desktop coming in Tuesday. All paid for by Mummy Dearest, which IS a surprise!
Here's looking forward to brighter days, what with a whole slew of unfortunate events slapping me in the face, one after another, throughout the past week. That was really awful.

So,
Dy has a new financial plan for me: No online shopping, no bubble tea.
If things go well enough I'll have a trust fund fat enough to last me through the 10-day vacation (i.e. wild shopping spree) in Taiwan, one semester in college and some leftover $$ for another laptop.
Sounds good enough!

Today I'm gonna start anew...

douleurr @ 2009-04-07T17:24:00

2009-04-07T09:27:57Z

I have a love-hate relationship with modern medicine..

While my nose is unblocked and the ache in my ribcage gone
I'm starting to develop what seems to be a case of vertigo... can't think. Can't walk straight.

I really hate being sick. I do.

douleurr @ 2009-04-04T23:28:00

2009-04-04T15:31:11Z

To banish one of my "Should I or Should I Not" dilemmas,
I went to the salon and chopped off 3 inches of my hair.

One word: Liberation

Re: Secret

2009-04-03T14:52:12Z

You am not alone....
(neither am I)

douleurr @ 2009-04-02T17:23:00

2009-04-02T09:33:36Z

WHY ARE ACCUSATIONS SO LOUD

and apologies so soft?

douleurr @ 2009-04-02T00:23:00

2009-04-01T16:25:11Z

Fate ALWAYS, ALWAYS has a way to make me into a hypocrite.

I swear it's not my fault!
(Okay, maybe it is.)

douleurr @ 2009-03-31T17:00:00

2009-03-31T09:03:54Z

I want a Butler bag!

Chocolate top grain leather with a compartmentalised design.
yum yum.

US$165.00... not so yum.

douleurr @ 2009-03-30T23:20:00

2009-03-30T15:37:38Z

Slowly...... s l o w l y going crazy.

I'm on the verge of tears EVERY SINGLE PASSING SECOND.
All the stress and responsibilities (not to mention pressing deadlines) are tearing. me. apart.

I got to run.